My First Rejection

I am a stubborn woman (I think my husband just said amen to that :P). I figure out my goal then throw myself at it. I strategize, plan down to the minute detail and calculate my odds at achieving that which I want most. I subconsciously live by the belief that if I just work hard enough at it, I can have it.

But sometimes what I want and what God wants for me are two different things.

Sometimes he says wait.

I just received my first book rejection two weeks ago. Now at first read, that would seem like a bummer. No one likes to be rejected. However, this person had a lot of nice things to say about my manuscript. As a writer, I needed to hear that. But she let me know, in the end, that the Christian book market at this point is not looking for a book like mine.

Anything else I could work with. If my manuscript needed more work, I could do that. Better writing, a thorough grammar check, a stronger main character: those are things I have control over. But the market? No matter how hard I work, I cannot change the market.

I stared at the email a couple more times, elated that someone liked my work and yet disheartened about the state of the market. Why write then? I thought. Then God pointed out two things:

He is not confined by the market. He can do what he wants when he wants. If God wants my book out there, then he has the power to do it (that if is a scary word).

And

Only he can make it happen. I can write the best book I can, but only God can bring together the market and the people to make it happen. That is out of my hands.  Believe me, the stubborn side of me wants to. But I can’t.

So what do I do now? I write and wait on Him. Waiting is not easy, but it produces patience and self control. Instead of barreling on ahead with my own agenda, I am learning to quiet myself and wait for God to move. That might be months or it might be years. I might not see it in my lifetime. But I believe that I am supposed to write. So therefore I will continue down the path God has shown me and trust him with the ending to my own life story.

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4 thoughts on “My First Rejection”

  1. I can so relate to where you are not Morgan. Most of my rejections were along the same lines. You’ve got a great attitude about moving forward and I’m sure God will reward your perseverance.

  2. God’s timing is so hard to understand and so hard to do but in the end I have found that it all works out the way he wants it to and better for me and the way he wants it . But if its suppose to happen it will just in God’s timing .Great attitude to have keep up that attitude I believe that God wants to see how we will respond when he says no just not right now ! don’t give up if you believe this is what he wants and its good for us to always write stuff down.{ even if its not a book}..
    Keep your chin up !
    Dana

  3. Thanks everyone 🙂

    Stuart, I’ve been reading about your own publishing journey over at Speculative Faith. Its been a very interesting and very encouraging read 🙂

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